But here’s why:
I didn’t want to say anything until it was official, but I finally have a worthwhile and fulfilling full-time job. The past few weeks have been filled with paperwork and interviews, and yesterday I finished my first week at work. It is awesome. This is the job I want to keep until my publisher says I have to start going on book tours. And since I haven’t been picked up by any big publishers yet, it may be a while still before that happens. And I am oddly okay with that. This gives me a chance to actually focus on writing when I’m at home, instead of stressing about other things I “should” be doing.
Anyone else who writes can tell you just how much chronic life stress will take a toll on your ability to connect with the ideas and inspiration just sitting inside you waiting to be tapped. And thinking about things today, I realized that I’ve had something close to ten years of a lot of stress. No wonder I haven’t been anywhere close to as productive as I might have liked. I’ve spent a lot of time learning how to let things go and how not to stress about things not under my control. I’m hoping that once financial stress starts easing its death grip on me, that productivity will shoot up. It usually does. I’m curious how many other writers experience this stress cycle with their writing. (Don’t be afraid to comment!)
Anyway. That’s the extremely good reason that I’ve been so quiet these past few weeks. Looking forward to doing awesome things with this new chapter of my life.
So you’ve probably all noticed that I’ve stopped posting regularly. I want to take a minute and explain why this is. It’s a simple answer, really.
Because I stopped writing.
I got so wrapped up in producing content for my blog, making sure that I had a blog post every day, that I started neglecting the reasons that I was here in the first place. When I became literally stressed over the last book of the week post (that I still haven’t posted), I realized that this had become a problem.
Since giving up the focus on daily content, I’ve written two short stories, some scenes that are going to find place in longer works, and I’ve gotten ridiculous amounts of outlining and planning done for the next major project. I’ll admit I probably swung a little toward the other extreme by not blogging at all, but I feel like I’m back to being a writer and aspiring novelist. Not just a blogger.
So I’m not going to do the daily posts anymore. I’m still going to post when I’m moved to do so, and keep everyone updated on what I’m working on, of course. Nanowrimo is fast approaching, too. So thanks for bearing with me. I know with this new focus on productivity I’m going to have plenty to share. :)
What I accomplished this past week:
- Finished sorting the GLIIH, yay!
- Changed the visual theme on my blog.
- Job interviews for jobs that aren’t writing. I am happy about the idea of having a more steady income, but it’s still depressing on the “I’m a creative person wanting to support myself with my creativity” level.
- A whole lot of evil writer’s block that I’m going to go ahead and blame on stress outside of writing things and the resultant fibromyalgia fog.
- A pretty sexy manicure because my creative energy needed someplace to go even if the writing was dammed up.
What I’d like to accomplish this week:
- Break the block and get the creative energy flowing back into writing instead of nail polish and photoshop.
- All the stuff I didn’t get done in the past week because of the fibro and other stresses.
What I’ve accomplished this week:
- Survived a rather nasty fibromyalgia flare. Pain is starting to go down, energy and ability to concentrate are going back up. Sort of. It’s a process, not an instant “feeling better”.
- Got more plotting done on the Soldaris Saga.
- Got more writing done on the Soldaris Saga.
- Managed to go out and enjoy myself with the family.
What I’d like to accomplish this week:
- Keep recovering from the flare-up.
- Finish the sorting of the GLIIH. It’s been a more intensive project than I expected.
- Finish my reworking of the story to submit to the Writers of the Future contest.
- Write and submit a very short story for a contest on a blog I follow.
- Get all my blog posts this week.
Today is an idea fodder article.
I’ve been getting some fun ideas from the mysterious hole that appeared in Yamal, Siberia. Incidentally, “Yamal” means “end of the earth” in the local native language. A second hole was discovered as well, helping to clear up the origins, but it’s still fun to play with in my head. Ideas like what could be down there, how it was formed if I ignore the scientists, what sort of science-fiction I can craft from the explanations of the scientists… Lots of fun idea fodder there.
This crazy hole in the earth at least has an explanation.
I think I could have some fun with world-building, with a quarry of that size…
I totally laughed when rolling the d20 on my list of characters gave me Karin’s husband the week after I highlighted her. Also a character whom I would like to develop further in the future.
Name: Dagon Averill
Project: Soldaris Saga
Occupation: Paladin, instructor at the Academy and later Commandant
Physical Features: graying dark blonde hair, neatly trimmed beard/mustache, soldier’s build, shorter side of average for a man, lingering limp from an old injury
Personality: Demanding, disciplined, almost cold while at work, and passionate, relaxed, easy-going when he’s not working
Strengths: able to identify and bring out the strengths in others, good leader
Weaknesses: Sometimes doesn’t know when enough is enough, cares too much about those under his command, speaks his mind when maybe he shouldn’t
Favorite color(s): black, gold, gray
Accomplishments: One of the most respected instructors at the Academy, later becomes Commandant of the Academy
Biggest Fear(s): That the people he loves will suffer, that his choices will lead people to disaster
Dreams: To make the Academy better than it ever has been before, to have a happy life with his family
- Karin Menette-Averill, wife
- Karin’s as-of-yet-unnamed children
- Ella Averill, younger sister
- Darios Averill, older brother
- Lana Averill, Darios’ wife
- Thorven Soldaris
- Taerwyn Davies-Soldaris
- Nikolai Darbon, the Paladin Bard
- Levanda, Mistress of the Academy Kitchens
- Commandant Perrus, previous Commandant
- Lady Skye, most famous Lady Paladin at the start of the saga
- Commander Hartley, Taerwyn’s unit commander at the Academy
- Niveon Davies, Taerwyn’s brother
- Mikael Helron (deceased)
- Anyone who threatens the safety and stability of the Academy
- The big bad and minions, of course