Holiday hectic time is over. This year I had my kids who live with my Ex during the school year visiting me, so if I’ve been quiet between that and the post-Nanowrimo de-stressing, I’m sure you can all understand. 🙂
But without any further ado, I’d like to say just one thing: I have a very good feeling about 2015 and what it’s going to mean for my writing.
For a while there, I gave every year a theme. “This is the Year of ____.” I’ve had the year of awesome, the year of doing things, the year of self-discipline. 2014 passed without being labeled, for whatever reason, but I’m feeling like 2015 needs something.
2015 is the Year of Dreams.
This is the year where I finally get a story accepted to Sword and Sorceress (third time’s the charm, right?). This is the year where I self-publish AND see decent sales. This is the year that I manage to gain an agent and/or a publisher. This is the year where I might actually get somewhere with Writers of the Future. This is the year I apply for a dream job, not because I think I’ll be able to get it, but just to say that I’m chasing my dream. This is the year I go back to school to finish my degree–and it will finally be in creative writing instead of something “more practical”.
Above all, this is the year where I stop letting naysayers hold me back, including the biggest naysayer of them all: myself. This is the year I let go of fear and just go for it. Every opportunity, every chance will be taken. This is the year I stop talking about following my dreams and actually do it instead.
Bear with me. I think it’s going to be the craziest and most amazing year yet.
I am pleased to report that I have managed to pick up my 7th NaNoWriMo win as of 10:30 last night.
This year is an extra special win, because not only did I manage it with my fibromyalgia getting worse and worse, but I also did it without the fibro and anxiety causing me to miss any work at my awesome amazing full-time job. I feel like I finally have my feet back under me, and I’m making a functional, (mostly) healthy life work for me. This makes 2014 a very special win for me. I am totally taking myself out to dinner to celebrate on payday.
Now comes the editing, and the never-ending debate of self-publishing vs. submitting to a traditional publisher. Either way, I feel like 2015 is going to be a pretty good year. 🙂
Some of you might have noticed that there’s a new page on the blog called Calendar and Events. Right now it just has NaNoWriMo write-ins and the like on it. I’m hoping in the next few months that I’ll be able to get some book releases on there, and if I’m lucky, times where I might be able to convince the local bookstores to let me come in and talk about writing and my books. I might even include times I’m just hanging out at the bookstore but approachable for talking shop.
I just wanted to get it up there, for some reason. Probably mostly because I’ve been playing around with Google Calendar and I think it’s useful and cool. So check it out and come see me sometime.
So, the first week of NaNoWriMo has been interesting. It started with a weekend full of food poisoning. I wasn’t able to get that first day surge that I was hoping for. Managed to catch up on Sunday, but then the work week came into play. I’ve managed to get to 5k, and I’ve been sitting there for a couple of days because even though I had time to write last night, the Universe in all its infinite wisdom decided that I needed a migraine. But tonight’s going to be bookstore time, and tomorrow is write-ins, and Sunday is quiet time. I’m very determined to make the best of it.
I also decided to ditch the project I was going to do. The outlining had me frustrated to the point of wanting to throw my computer out of the window before I even started Nano and I took that as a bad sign. So I’ve returned to the Soldaris Saga, trying to knock out the next book. The first five thousand words have revealed a lot of the things that I’ve been wondering about some of the places and characters for a couple of years now. So I don’t think I’m going to complain about the change in project.
I have an excerpt from the novel up on the NaNoWriMo site if you’d like to read it. I’m very pleased with it as part of a first draft. I also have my other projects from past years with their excerpts on the site. So please go read, let me know what you think, and enjoy. You can follow my progress there, or off to the side here on my blog.
Wish me luck catching up this weekend. I know I can do it, but a little bit of encouragement never hurts!
So this will be my tenth NaNoWriMo. I feel like this deserves something special, at least in terms of the way I do things. I’m totally splurging on a t-shirt even though I never have before, and donating to the non-profit, and all of that fun stuff. Having a job is nice.
This year I’ve decided to revisit an old, old idea that I had in high school, but really just didn’t have the maturity and sophistication to pull off back then. Although to be honest I’m not sure how much maturity and sophistication you actually need in order to pull off a 90s anime-flavored space opera romance…
So in preparation for November I’m binge-watching Robotech and reading Stardoc again. My outline is actually starting to resemble an outline instead of random thoughts. I’m totally a planner, not a pantser. So it’s good to see it coming all together well before the 31st of October.
I’m getting excited.
Anyone else joining me this year?
But here’s why:
I didn’t want to say anything until it was official, but I finally have a worthwhile and fulfilling full-time job. The past few weeks have been filled with paperwork and interviews, and yesterday I finished my first week at work. It is awesome. This is the job I want to keep until my publisher says I have to start going on book tours. And since I haven’t been picked up by any big publishers yet, it may be a while still before that happens. And I am oddly okay with that. This gives me a chance to actually focus on writing when I’m at home, instead of stressing about other things I “should” be doing.
Anyone else who writes can tell you just how much chronic life stress will take a toll on your ability to connect with the ideas and inspiration just sitting inside you waiting to be tapped. And thinking about things today, I realized that I’ve had something close to ten years of a lot of stress. No wonder I haven’t been anywhere close to as productive as I might have liked. I’ve spent a lot of time learning how to let things go and how not to stress about things not under my control. I’m hoping that once financial stress starts easing its death grip on me, that productivity will shoot up. It usually does. I’m curious how many other writers experience this stress cycle with their writing. (Don’t be afraid to comment!)
Anyway. That’s the extremely good reason that I’ve been so quiet these past few weeks. Looking forward to doing awesome things with this new chapter of my life.
So you’ve probably all noticed that I’ve stopped posting regularly. I want to take a minute and explain why this is. It’s a simple answer, really.
Because I stopped writing.
I got so wrapped up in producing content for my blog, making sure that I had a blog post every day, that I started neglecting the reasons that I was here in the first place. When I became literally stressed over the last book of the week post (that I still haven’t posted), I realized that this had become a problem.
Since giving up the focus on daily content, I’ve written two short stories, some scenes that are going to find place in longer works, and I’ve gotten ridiculous amounts of outlining and planning done for the next major project. I’ll admit I probably swung a little toward the other extreme by not blogging at all, but I feel like I’m back to being a writer and aspiring novelist. Not just a blogger.
So I’m not going to do the daily posts anymore. I’m still going to post when I’m moved to do so, and keep everyone updated on what I’m working on, of course. Nanowrimo is fast approaching, too. So thanks for bearing with me. I know with this new focus on productivity I’m going to have plenty to share. 🙂