Life happens, especially with chronic illness, and I think we all understand that. Today I just want to talk about writing, and some of how it works for me.
I’ve decided to give the Soldaris Saga a little bit of a break. I was getting far too frustrated with it, and grumpy about having to set other ideas on the back burner because of it. Yes, I know that’s not how editing and publishing deadlines work. But since I don’t currently have an editor, a publisher, or a scheduled date of release, I thought it was time to give myself a break and let me feed my muse for a while.
I’ve got an awesome fantasy romance coming together, and an episodic KDrama-flavored story I want to start on Wattpad or something (yes, I’ll post details when I get it going, and yes, I will probably talk about the KDrama addiction in a later post), and I’ve been posting Shadowfighter, and writing for class, and writing short stories to submit (including entering Writers of the Future two quarters in a row now), and meanwhile Soldaris continues to fix itself in the back of my head.
This is the hardest part of writing for me. The being able to step back and let it go on its own. For me, it’s like brewing coffee. You add the coffee to the machine, which is the characters and the world-building, you add the water that makes it all work, which is the plot… and then you sit back and let it percolate. And eventually it all comes out through the filter of author’s vision and writing and editing, and you have your coffee. But it doesn’t happen instantly, and if and when it does…. Well, there’s a reason instant coffee doesn’t sell well. It’s because it’s just not as good as the brewed stuff.
So maybe I’ve been a little more delayed on my big projects than I might have liked. But for now? It’s all still brewing while I work on the smaller stuff, and that’s okay. :)
So I have a ton of drafts sitting unfinished on this blog, not sure where I want to take the posts.
But something I have been working on diligently is putting Shadowfighter, the YA paranormal romance I wrote during high school, up on WattPad. I’ve also just started putting it up on its own WordPress blog because I feel like there’s more I can do with WordPress–especially scheduling posts.
It’s not meant to be any sort of finished project, just something fun. So if you’d like to go read, and enjoy, I’ll be scheduling it to update three times a week. Happy reading!
The redhead stepped into the blank white room, heels clicking against the tile floor. She set her black leather portfolio down on the plain white table and opened it, placing a single purple pen on top of a blank lined page. Staring at the comfy white armchair across the table from her, she let her gaze drift to the door on the opposite wall from where she entered.
A smile curved her red lips, and she let her glossy plum-painted nails tap against the surface in anticipation. Soon. Soon the subjects would come in, one by one, and she would discover their wackiest quirks, their grandest desires, their deepest fears.
She left the notebook on the table and turned, turning out the light on her way out of the room. Her smile grew as a slight spring came to her step.
She couldn’t wait.
I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting you these past few months. I’ve had a lot of major life transitions this past year: got laid off, found a new job, moved to a new city, broke up for good with the love of my life-up-until-now, ventured unsucessfully into dating again, got promoted to another new job that had some really intense training, started school again, had a car die on me and got a new one, got bad news about my health and started making big lifestyle changes, and finally decided that rocking the single life is where it’s at. I’ve leveled up quite a bit as an adult.
But all these things, both the bad and the good, leave me feeling like I had to put my writing life on hold to manage them. There’s a backlog of unpublished blog post drafts that I got ideas for and never finished. A dearth of tweets and Facebook posts. That goal I had of getting published before LTUE 2016? Not going to happen in the next three weeks. The novel revisions and rewrites I was going to finish for the Soldaris Saga are still waiting to happen. And the first drafts of anything else were never even touched.
The good news is, with the exception of possibly moving to a different apartment two blocks from my current residence in May, I think I’m done with the major life-stressing transitions for now.
What does this mean for us? It means, dear characters, that I will be able to return to your worlds and devote more time to your stories. It means that I can return to that part of me I’ve been missing where I sit and enjoy the magic of making you come alive from mere words, and the richness of environs beyond my mundane surroundings.
It might take me a while to get back into good habits, but the neglect ends here and now. I’m coming home to you. Please wait for me.
It’s been said that the only constant is change.
This has been proven to me in ridiculously dramatic ways over the last six weeks, since just before LTUE. (And yes, there will be a conference report coming, but I think I can be forgiven for being otherwise occupied the last three weeks.)
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I’ve been quiet for a while, at least on my blog. I’m more active on Twitter and Facebook because they’re a much shorter format. (And you can find both off to the right-hand side!)
But this past weekend I attended the Life, The Universe, and Everything writing symposium again. Those of you that have followed me for a while know that this is one of the biggest highlights of my writing year. I’m still processing it all. But as always, I will have plenty to say about it once that processing is done. :)
But the biggest, best thing I got out of it this year is a renewed confidence in my talent, skill, and ability to be an up-and-coming professional. And because of LTUE, I know what the theme for 2015 is meant to be.
2015 is the Year of Dreaming Bigger and Reaching Higher.
This year, I believe in me. This year, I believe in taking everything that the previous years have given me, and applying it to making something incredible of my life. This year is the one where I build the foundation that will allow me to quit my day job next year and write full time. And this year is the one where my life finally becomes everything that I want it to be, not what everyone else around me says it should be.
Holiday hectic time is over. This year I had my kids who live with my Ex during the school year visiting me, so if I’ve been quiet between that and the post-Nanowrimo de-stressing, I’m sure you can all understand.
But without any further ado, I’d like to say just one thing: I have a very good feeling about 2015 and what it’s going to mean for my writing.
For a while there, I gave every year a theme. “This is the Year of ____.” I’ve had the year of awesome, the year of doing things, the year of self-discipline. 2014 passed without being labeled, for whatever reason, but I’m feeling like 2015 needs something.
2015 is the Year of Dreams.
This is the year where I finally get a story accepted to Sword and Sorceress (third time’s the charm, right?). This is the year where I self-publish AND see decent sales. This is the year that I manage to gain an agent and/or a publisher. This is the year where I might actually get somewhere with Writers of the Future. This is the year I apply for a dream job, not because I think I’ll be able to get it, but just to say that I’m chasing my dream. This is the year I go back to school to finish my degree–and it will finally be in creative writing instead of something “more practical”.
Above all, this is the year where I stop letting naysayers hold me back, including the biggest naysayer of them all: myself. This is the year I let go of fear and just go for it. Every opportunity, every chance will be taken. This is the year I stop talking about following my dreams and actually do it instead.
Bear with me. I think it’s going to be the craziest and most amazing year yet.