The redhead stepped into the blank white room, heels clicking against the tile floor. She set her black leather portfolio down on the plain white table and opened it, placing a single purple pen on top of a blank lined page. Staring at the comfy white armchair across the table from her, she let her gaze drift to the door on the opposite wall from where she entered.
A smile curved her red lips, and she let her glossy plum-painted nails tap against the surface in anticipation. Soon. Soon the subjects would come in, one by one, and she would discover their wackiest quirks, their grandest desires, their deepest fears.
She left the notebook on the table and turned, turning out the light on her way out of the room. Her smile grew as a slight spring came to her step.
She couldn’t wait.
I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting you these past few months. I’ve had a lot of major life transitions this past year: got laid off, found a new job, moved to a new city, broke up for good with the love of my life-up-until-now, ventured unsucessfully into dating again, got promoted to another new job that had some really intense training, started school again, had a car die on me and got a new one, got bad news about my health and started making big lifestyle changes, and finally decided that rocking the single life is where it’s at. I’ve leveled up quite a bit as an adult.
But all these things, both the bad and the good, leave me feeling like I had to put my writing life on hold to manage them. There’s a backlog of unpublished blog post drafts that I got ideas for and never finished. A dearth of tweets and Facebook posts. That goal I had of getting published before LTUE 2016? Not going to happen in the next three weeks. The novel revisions and rewrites I was going to finish for the Soldaris Saga are still waiting to happen. And the first drafts of anything else were never even touched.
The good news is, with the exception of possibly moving to a different apartment two blocks from my current residence in May, I think I’m done with the major life-stressing transitions for now.
What does this mean for us? It means, dear characters, that I will be able to return to your worlds and devote more time to your stories. It means that I can return to that part of me I’ve been missing where I sit and enjoy the magic of making you come alive from mere words, and the richness of environs beyond my mundane surroundings.
It might take me a while to get back into good habits, but the neglect ends here and now. I’m coming home to you. Please wait for me.
It’s been said that the only constant is change.
This has been proven to me in ridiculously dramatic ways over the last six weeks, since just before LTUE. (And yes, there will be a conference report coming, but I think I can be forgiven for being otherwise occupied the last three weeks.)
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I’ve been quiet for a while, at least on my blog. I’m more active on Twitter and Facebook because they’re a much shorter format. (And you can find both off to the right-hand side!)
But this past weekend I attended the Life, The Universe, and Everything writing symposium again. Those of you that have followed me for a while know that this is one of the biggest highlights of my writing year. I’m still processing it all. But as always, I will have plenty to say about it once that processing is done. :)
But the biggest, best thing I got out of it this year is a renewed confidence in my talent, skill, and ability to be an up-and-coming professional. And because of LTUE, I know what the theme for 2015 is meant to be.
2015 is the Year of Dreaming Bigger and Reaching Higher.
This year, I believe in me. This year, I believe in taking everything that the previous years have given me, and applying it to making something incredible of my life. This year is the one where I build the foundation that will allow me to quit my day job next year and write full time. And this year is the one where my life finally becomes everything that I want it to be, not what everyone else around me says it should be.
Holiday hectic time is over. This year I had my kids who live with my Ex during the school year visiting me, so if I’ve been quiet between that and the post-Nanowrimo de-stressing, I’m sure you can all understand.
But without any further ado, I’d like to say just one thing: I have a very good feeling about 2015 and what it’s going to mean for my writing.
For a while there, I gave every year a theme. “This is the Year of ____.” I’ve had the year of awesome, the year of doing things, the year of self-discipline. 2014 passed without being labeled, for whatever reason, but I’m feeling like 2015 needs something.
2015 is the Year of Dreams.
This is the year where I finally get a story accepted to Sword and Sorceress (third time’s the charm, right?). This is the year where I self-publish AND see decent sales. This is the year that I manage to gain an agent and/or a publisher. This is the year where I might actually get somewhere with Writers of the Future. This is the year I apply for a dream job, not because I think I’ll be able to get it, but just to say that I’m chasing my dream. This is the year I go back to school to finish my degree–and it will finally be in creative writing instead of something “more practical”.
Above all, this is the year where I stop letting naysayers hold me back, including the biggest naysayer of them all: myself. This is the year I let go of fear and just go for it. Every opportunity, every chance will be taken. This is the year I stop talking about following my dreams and actually do it instead.
Bear with me. I think it’s going to be the craziest and most amazing year yet.
I am pleased to report that I have managed to pick up my 7th NaNoWriMo win as of 10:30 last night.
This year is an extra special win, because not only did I manage it with my fibromyalgia getting worse and worse, but I also did it without the fibro and anxiety causing me to miss any work at my awesome amazing full-time job. I feel like I finally have my feet back under me, and I’m making a functional, (mostly) healthy life work for me. This makes 2014 a very special win for me. I am totally taking myself out to dinner to celebrate on payday.
Now comes the editing, and the never-ending debate of self-publishing vs. submitting to a traditional publisher. Either way, I feel like 2015 is going to be a pretty good year. :)
Some of you might have noticed that there’s a new page on the blog called Calendar and Events. Right now it just has NaNoWriMo write-ins and the like on it. I’m hoping in the next few months that I’ll be able to get some book releases on there, and if I’m lucky, times where I might be able to convince the local bookstores to let me come in and talk about writing and my books. I might even include times I’m just hanging out at the bookstore but approachable for talking shop.
I just wanted to get it up there, for some reason. Probably mostly because I’ve been playing around with Google Calendar and I think it’s useful and cool. So check it out and come see me sometime.