It was a wonderful, fabulous weekend. I think the only low was when I lost my jacket and couldn’t find it, but everyone was so helpful and I was able to find it again. (Even if it did take seven hours. I still was able to find it thanks to awesome people, and everything was still in the pockets.)
I can’t even begin to process ALL of it just yet. I want to do this write-up properly, so I’ll probably write more extensively on the experience tomorrow after I have had time to digest. It was probably one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life. It’s the best decision of 2013 so far, and the best decision I’ve ever made as I work on moving my writing from deeply-involved hobby to career.
I got lots of neat stuff, and not all of it was flyers and bookmarks and nifty things from all the vendors. The information I received was far more valuable than any physical thing. I never knew both how ready I am to jump into the publishing world, and how much I didn’t–and still don’t–know.
There was a question on one panel where the moderator asked, “when did you feel like you could call yourself a real writer?” One of the answers really struck me, because I think it hit on what I’ve been missing up until very recently. When you are ready to commit to writing as a life, then you are a “real” writer.
I’m ready to commit. Like the badge ribbon I got from Howard Tayler’s vendor table says, “I am out of excuses.”
No more excuses. No more whining. No more letting fibromyalgia or depression keep me down. This is the Year of Doing for me, and I am getting out there and doing. (And getting in here and doing, and getting into Word and doing, you get the idea….)
All-in-all it was a very positive and encouraging experience, in spite of that little voice that keeps saying “too much competition; look at the people that are here and multiply that by a million or more”. For the first time in my life I feel not only capable of competing, but READY to compete too. So bring on the rejection letters and the eventual successes. This is my year.